relocated-new xanga. look under 'sites i read'--newest subscribers... i dont want certain people to know where im at.

edit-- sorry some of you that i didnt subscribe to... xanga was being anal last night so i didnt get to finish!! i wouldnt have forgotten you.. trust meeee!!! i love you all!!!

'when's halloween?'--derek...classic buddy!! good times good laughs...needed that tonight!!

why do i always find myself contemplating everything i have ever done. lately ive been depressed, sick, lost, confused? so scratch the whole other entry. i close my eyes & it all haunts me til this day. is something wrong with me?  was i not good enough? i regret a lot from my past but i dont want you to haunt me anymore.  i want closure, i want answers. youll give them to me when you return from your wonderland that could not include me for two months.

grandma--im sorry, sorry for letting you down. ill make it up to you...

shelbys right--I kept my mouth shut for too long. I kept my eyes blinded for too long. That blindfold must have had a hole in it somewhere because, one day, I could NOT handle how much pain you all caused me. 

to you the devil i WILL not let you get the best of me no more. ladies and gents to you i say i am done, done with what has troubled me so many times.

letting go....?

got my wisdoms out... what a BIOTCH!! it hurts like no other... well as soon as this is over i am getting my tongue pierced so YAY!!

so ive been having toooo much fun... and not doing enough studying and going to classes...

goals for the week: get my ass together and start doing WORK... and also finding a JOB!!!

i hope that everyone is enjoying everything... I LOVE COLLEGE!!!

kristen--if you read this i miss you like crazy... you should come home already! love you lots.

peace out homies.

*ive been waiting for something i cant have, ive been wishing that someday it would come true. i cant sit here any longer wishing you were here.*

end of the road. still i can't let go.

"If you can just turn and walk away,
and feel there's nothing more you need to say,
and if u dont feel a tearing in your heart,
if u can so easily forget about me,
and all the things i tried to be,
then i guess there was really no reason for you to stay..."

edit-- i am soo mad at myself right now... i was suppose to wake up at 11 to go back to mililani so that i would go to alii's with everyone... but NOOOO since the guys kept me up all night (630am) looking at stupid nudity that we had already seen in the club.  why didnt i wake up... asdkfjlkdsjf! you dont know how disappointed i am in myself... i rather stay up late and not wake up when i am suppose to then celebrate chez's birthday... how LAME am i...

on a brighter note-- HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEZRAY!!! sorry i didnt get to go... i love you bro!! we allllll miss you as you can tell....

last night or this morning was sooo crazy... we chilled at keahi's place cus it was anson's birthday... happy ONE-EIGHT!! (strip club tonight yo) had a few... karli my dear come down more often.... when i go back to mililani ill be sure to call you up hun.... dont worry about things... and yes thanks for the wonderful venting session.... luff you lots.... met knew people last night too!! i must say that I NEED TO GET OUT MORE, whats wrong with me? court needs to call me and tell me details huh dork? well i guess im doing better... ill live, deal with it right? hope everyones weekend is going kick ass... call me up if you have nothing to do....

*beach SUNDAY!! be there or be square.... CHEZ will love it... bring your love...*

P.E.A.C.E